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Day one: Strange
Day two: Missing
Day three: Loneliness
Day four: Longing
Day five: hope
Day six: Return

Aye, a ‘parody’ on Ayreon - The Human Equation, but true for me. This week, that was.

*shrug*

Music: Avro Pärt - Alina

I’ve often wondered if there’s a point to so many things we do, we say, we see. More than once I’ve come to conclude that many things we do are just for the masses, for the appeasing of the public that surrounds us. Looks are everything, who gives a flying fuck about the person underneath these days?

As long as you behave in a way people expect you to behave, and you are a good boy/girl, they’ll accept you. Step out of line once, they’ll be all over you like vultures, stealing what they can before dropping you like a left-over of yesterdays’s dinner.

I hate it.

New music: Celtic Requiem. Kinda sad.

… on 19 August…

Still so many days… And yet, so little…

*picks up a flower* *tears off the leaves, one by one*
Happy… Sad… Happy… Sad… Happy…

I don’t know how to feel these days. Mostly happy, tho.
And I’m _not_ looking forward to next week.

In a world so far away
At the end of a closing day
A little child was born and raised
Deep in the forest on a hidden place
Mother never saw his face

Ancient spirits of the forest
Made him king of elves and trees
He was the only human being
Who lived in harmony
In perfect harmony

The woods protected, fulfillled his needs
Fruit by birds, honey by bees
He found shelter under trees
He grew up in their company
They became his family

Ancient spirits of the forest
Made him king of elves and trees
He was the only human being
Who lived in harmony
In perfect harmony

A thousand seasons
They passed him by
So many times, have said goodbye
And when the spirits called out his name
To join forever, forever to stay
A forest spirit he became

Ancient spirits of the forest
Made him king of elves and trees
He was the only human being
Who lived in harmony
In perfect harmony

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*sigh*

I’ve often wondered why people are so rotten to other people, or why things happen in the way they do. I guess we just have to learn to live with the idea that there are folk out there that - just for the sheer fun of it - try to drive somebody totally in the ground. In a community - eg neighbours - we should all try to get along, since it’s in the interest of everyone, but there are certain individuals that don’t believe in the credo [i]The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few[/i]. Blergh.

Yes, I feel like ranting. Can’t help it. What do I want to rant about? Various things, things I can’t discuss here, things I can. Things material, like the crappyness of certain cars (Peugeot 106 comes to mind - temp lease car, I know, luxury problem, but still), like the fact that I’m currently not really very happy in my job (it’s way to calm here for my likings)… Things immaterial, like how sh*tty you can truly feel if something isn’t really going the way you’d like it to. Like this stupid jumpstart, which really ticked me off yesterday. (for those not knowing, a jumpstart is installing a server over network from an installation server so after the installation’s finished it’s all up and ready to rock ‘n roll). It got me so pissed if someone would have come along to bother me then I’d probably rammed it up his .

Whatever. Today’s a new day, and the sun is shi… oh, wait, it’s raining. Grrrrrrreat. Oh, but it’s full moon tonight, so it’s still great. Could be better, if the sun was shining. So maybe not great as in “Great!”, but just great.

Unrelated sidethought: be careful with your friends - they’re precious.

*poof*